I have been honoured to be trained over the last 6 years by the wonderful Mistress Madox, who always continues to amaze me with her perfection.
Mistress is very powerful and could easily break me into two if she so desired but she also has wonderful control, to slowly bring a true submissive out of the dark and into her light, and this is what she has done for me, and I am eternally grateful to her, and she holds a special place in my heart.


My sessions with Mistress are never planned out, we go where mistresses passion is on that day, and the tools of delight that she has to hand. Today mistress had all her luxurious toys available to her after being in storage for a number of months, so mistress was very happy and could not decide on which of her arsenal of delights to use, so impulsively decided that ALL the toys where coming out, and I would experience the full array of nice and not so nice, spanker’s, paddles, crops, floggers and all of mistresses canes.

The equipment that Mistress has is much like herself, luxurious, quality, and very strong, and as mistress collared me and took control of my soul, I felt myself fall into my ‘happy place’, knelt at the foot of Mistresses throne.
I soon found myself in the bondage chair, restrained and full exposed, and mistress took delight as she slowly stretched my nipples, with her favourite pair of very weighty cloverleaf nipple clamps, and also stretched my testicles with lead weight after lead weight, much to mistresses amusement.


Mistress was happy with my desire to please her and decided that I would be rewarded with a good hard spanking, to warm me up and so moved me to the spanking bench, with my bottom on display. Slowly mistress started to spank me, gently at first until the warm glow started to spread across my cheeks, and then harder as my tolerance increased. Mistress loves to take her time and slowly raise hers slaves pain threshold,its one of her gifts, which gives her more time to enjoy her slaves discomfort.


Mistress was in a very good mood, and started to select the next item of punishment, and I would receive at least 10 to 30 strokes of each item in her arsenal. I was to count in groups of 10 and to thank Mistress on every tenth blow. I remembered mistresses excellent training to how to use my breathing to permit the pain sensation to spread across my body, and through mistresses guidance and encouragement we worked our way through the light spanker’s, to the leather paddles, onto the hard wooden paddles and finally to the tawse, until my count reached 200.
Mistress congratulated on part one of her punishment but I was also to sample her canes today, and the punishment that I had received so far was purely the warm up.

The 200 strokes had sent me to the edge of subspace, and the subsequent 100 strokes of the various canes had me purring with delight (especially Mistresses long red handled cane, that has a special thudy feel on the buttocks, and a sudden sharp bite as it wraps round the cheek), as I floated on a soft cloud of endorphins, and whilst I was being caned a heard mistresses music change to “return to innocence”, and the lyrics made me cry as these sum up exactly how I feel towards mistress and what she has done for me, and how much respect and devotion I have for her.

Love, devotion
Love, devotion
Feeling, emotion
Feeling, emotion

Don’t be afraid to be weak
Don’t be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart, my friend
That will be the return to yourself

The return to innocence

The return to innocence

And if you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry

Be yourself, don’t hide
Just believe in destiny

Don’t care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don’t give up and use the chance
To return to innocence

That’s not the beginning, it’s the end
That’s the return to yourself

After the emotion of the caning had passed mistress let me recover and slowly come down from my high, and moved me to the bondage bench to feel the full force of her favourite electrics. Mistress had a new toy that I have never experience before the nipple tower, which is a simple design but amazing to experience.


Mistress attached the electrics, and fitted the nipple tower and slowly increased the intensity of the electrics which slowly stretching and releasing the pull on my nipples.
The feeling was out of this world, and I quickly fell over back into the world of subspace and was again floating in the clouds, whilst mistress guided me, controlling my breathing and electrifying my soul. I felt 7feet tall ,and there was nothing that I could not achieve. That is mistresses true gift, it would be so easy to destroy me, to make me feel worthless and belittled, but she gives me part of her strength and makes me strong, and gives me my inner confidence to conquer my inner demons that have held me back for many years. Mistress has set me free, and I can never thank her enough for what she has given me.


Thank you Goddess, your devoted slave PSW  (and I hope to see you again soon)